Acceptance

I feel like a new season is upon me.  I am not sure of the length, so while it is here I want to enjoy it.  It is a season of rest.  It is a season of peace.  This is my life.  Small house.  Loving husband.  ONE child.  of course that is not all my life, but basically sums up all of the things that I have had little peace over the last few years.

This is my acceptance.

I have wanted a Mother’s Ring since Ruthie was born.  But you may as well wait till your done with all your kids.  I didn’t expect to have this secondary infertility.

So we waited.

Last week I went to the shop with every intention on getting a stackable birthstone ring.  There is still a chance of pregnancy.  Lets be clear, we are doing our part

What will be will be.

I placed the stackable ring on my finger and it just didn’t work for me.  Then I saw this style of ring.  My birthstone and hers.

Perfect.

Mom and Daughter.

So we bought it. NO hesitation.

I love it.  It doesn’t make me sad when I look at it.  It makes me happy.  Happy that I one amazing, healthy child.

People have questioned me on this.  Most still think pregnancy will happen.  Let them be hopeful for me.  Me, I am going to accept this for what it is.  I am a mother of one child and that one child will be 5 in a few days and will be grown up before I know it.

All of those spoiled “only child” syndromes may just be her fate after all!

..and I am okay with that!